Category Archives: grief

The Weight of April

Posted on April 22, 2023 by daeja's view

There are certain days of the year where for some reason (or no reason), a traumatic or dramatic event has historically and repeatedly happened to either me or someone in my family – both terrible and wonderful. Although I’m not … Continue reading →

Posted in Coping, grief, Holidays, nature, Perspective, Spring, Uncategorized | Tagged abandonment, April, death of a loved one, losing a mother, loss and gain, love and loss, new joys, rescue dog, stress manifested, submerged feelings, the holiday curse, therapeutic gardening, yin/yang | Leave a comment

What Tears Are These?

Posted on February 19, 2023 by daeja's view

Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean,Tears from the depth of some divine despairRise in the heart, and gather to the eyes – Alfred Lord Tennyson When is the last time you cried? And why? Recently – with … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Animal Stories, Dogs, grief, Perspective | Tagged dog rescue sites, old dog adoption, senior dog, special needs dog, tears, transferred grief | 2 Comments

The Wallet

Posted on November 5, 2022 by daeja's view

It was more years ago than I can exactly recall when my mother asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I told her I wanted a good wallet. I was very specific about what kind of wallet I … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Autumn, Coping, Flashback, grief, Perspective, Regrets, treasures, Uncategorized | Tagged attachment to things, attachments, gift from my mother, letting go, loss, mother love, symbols of love, thrift shop | Leave a comment

The Robe

Posted on October 9, 2022 by daeja's view

At the moment I am trying to wade through some difficult feelings brought on by some recently revisited trauma. It’s been one of those situations where there is a strange, anxious, physical vibration in your very core. While this has … Continue reading →

Posted in Coping, grief, Perspective, Regrets, Uncategorized | Tagged death, grief, loss, Memories, olfactory responses, possessions, sibling rivalry, trauma | 2 Comments

Passing of the Buck

Posted on October 5, 2020 by daeja's view

I went out to investigate why a police car was parked in front of my driveway on this sunny Saturday afternoon, officers standing there pointing towards the backyard. Years ago there had been a foot chase culminating in a suspect … Continue reading →

Posted in Animal Stories, Are you kidding me?, Coping, grief, Uncategorized, Wildlife | Tagged Deer, EHD, Epizootic Hemorrhagic Disease, municipal responsibility, Red tape, sick deer, sick wildlife, who is responsible | 4 Comments

Linden

Posted on May 23, 2020 by daeja's view

This is a rather longish post concerning the frustration of municipal red tape and the loss of a friend, of sorts. It is one of those “shaking my head” type posts. It is also about quality of life, trying to … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Are you kidding me?, grief, Perspective, Rant, Regrets, Spring, Uncategorized, Vent | Tagged arbor, city ordinances, Linden tree, losing a tree | 4 Comments

Surfing the Pandemic

Posted on April 26, 2020 by daeja's view

I’ve had no inclination to write for such a long time, even before the pandemic occurred. Now more than ever it has been difficult trying to align cohesive thoughts and feelings and translate them into words. I hadn’t even bothered … Continue reading →

Posted in Are you kidding me?, Coping, grief, Perspective, Uncategorized, Weird | Tagged coping during COVID-19, Getting by in the time of COVID-19, observations, Pandemic, strange times, weird times | 4 Comments

Little Bird

Posted on July 18, 2019 by daeja's view

Following a quick but torrential downpour and some gusty winds, the S.O. discovered a fledgling robin scooting around between the dying iris foliage in our front yard. The linden tree immediately nearby is the most likely place it came from, … Continue reading →

Posted in Animal Stories, Birds, Coping, Daeja's Garden, grief, Regrets, Uncategorized, Wildlife | Tagged death, fledglings, grief by proxy, saving a bird, the right decision? | 2 Comments

Ashes

Posted on April 10, 2019 by daeja's view

Left holding the bag again Or box, as it so happens A container of dust That is not really him * Okay it’s true the person is gone Their spirit and essence Does not reside in this unworthy cube of … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Coping, Friends, grief, Perspective, Uncategorized, Vent | Tagged choices, death, loss, Memories, remains | 1 Comment

Rage

Posted on September 19, 2018 by daeja's view

Okay, it was clearly my fault. Today started out poorly, following a week without one solid night’s sleep. Perhaps it was because I stayed up too late watching a forgettable movie with loathsome characters and a predictable outcome, but last … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Coping, grief, Perspective, Rant, Shopping, Uncategorized, Vent | Tagged aging, angry people, anxiety, death, depression, insomnia, it's my fault, losing a friend, loss, parking lot altercations, road rage, senior demographics | 1 Comment

Butterfly Sheets

Posted on August 6, 2018 by daeja's view

On the day I was changing the bed linens, I came across a set of butterfly pattern sheets that had migrated to the back of the shelf in the closet. The pillow cases were long gone and the elastic on … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Coping, Friends, grief, Perspective, Regrets, Uncategorized | Tagged babies, be here now, birth, death, Friends, grief, holding on, letting go, life, Memories, mom | 2 Comments

Found and Lost

Posted on September 25, 2017 by daeja's view

During the gawky, dark, painfully insecure pre and early-adolescent summers of my youth, I attended what was advertised as an “inter-faith, inter-racial” summer camp out in what was once the wilds of Connecticut, before it became greatly suburbanized. From what … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Autumn, Friends, grief, Perspective, Uncategorized | Tagged Childhood, i remember you, missed opportunities, old friends, summer camp, the past comes back | 2 Comments

The Littlest of Things

Posted on January 25, 2017 by daeja's view

It has been many months since I have attempted a blog post – essentially rendered speechless and saddened by what is going on in our country and in the world. In this time of tremendous stress, uncertainty, conflict, fear, and … Continue reading →

Posted in Coping, grief, Perspective, Uncategorized | Tagged drain catcher, government, government metaphors, losing something precious, observations, plumbing woes, reflections, small satisfactions, too much hair | 4 Comments

Blessings Amid the Depression

Posted on August 10, 2016 by daeja's view

Breakfast this morning consisted of a handful of foraged chanterelle mushrooms sautéed in butter and garlic, then scrambled into two fresh eggs from a neighbor’s chickens and sprinkled with ground Himalayan pink salt and fresh peppercorn. The mushroom eggs were … Continue reading →

Posted in Aging, Coping, grief, Hearing Impaired, Perspective, Rant, Uncategorized, Vent | Tagged appreciation, blessings, depressed, depression, dysthymia, feeling blue, gratefulness, loss, moods, people judging depression | 4 Comments

The Telekinesis of Grief

Posted on August 17, 2015 by daeja's view

This is an odd thing that I have only shared with a very small handful of people because it is so weird. I have often wondered if anyone else has had the same experiences, and after giving it some serious … Continue reading →

Posted in Are you kidding me?, Coping, Deafness, grief | Tagged electrical charge, gaining a sense, grief, hearing loss, loss, loss of sense | 4 Comments